Had a complete breakdown at work after a very bad call. For fucks sake, I don't care how angry you are, DON'T TAKE IT OUT ON THE PERSON TRYING TO HELP YOU.
I am so sick and fucking tired of being yelled at for things I didn't do. For things I have no control over. For following company policy or procedure. I am just so fucking tired and burnt out and it just doesn't stop. It never stops. Day in, day out, all I do is get yelled at over things I have zero control over. And there is NOTHING else out there for me. Nothing. I'm turning 46 this year and there is nothing for me. This is my life now. This is all my life is. It's probably my penance for being such a toxic asshole who pushes everyone away. I deserve this. I'm trapped in this fucking job for the rest of my life. If I'm lucky, I'll have a heart attack or get hit while biking to end my miserable, pathetic life and put me out of my misery.