I'm in the best place I've maybe ever been in my life. And I just broke up with a beautiful girl who made me laugh and was a great conversationalist. I was happier with her than I am now - it hurts to break up. But it's not about happiness. And, call it a rebound, though I don't think it is, I have a date on Thursday.
So that's weird.
After spending about ten years as an atheist, I've come to the conclusion - in fact, it's like a switch has flipped, that I was wrong. That God does exist, and one can reason out many of his attributes.
So that's weird.
I have depression still. I deal with it daily still. But it doesn't guide me any longer. I think that's the thing with it. I need medication to manage it, but I make the decisions now. It doesn't decide what path I walk down. It will always be with me, but it's unconvincing when it whispers about how miserable life is or shouts about suicide - not a compelling argument when the path is lovely and full of meaning. It was a much better demon when it was in charge.
So
That's weird.
I just bought a case of wine. That's not weird, I'm just pleased with myself.
So that's weird.
After spending about ten years as an atheist, I've come to the conclusion - in fact, it's like a switch has flipped, that I was wrong. That God does exist, and one can reason out many of his attributes.
So that's weird.
I have depression still. I deal with it daily still. But it doesn't guide me any longer. I think that's the thing with it. I need medication to manage it, but I make the decisions now. It doesn't decide what path I walk down. It will always be with me, but it's unconvincing when it whispers about how miserable life is or shouts about suicide - not a compelling argument when the path is lovely and full of meaning. It was a much better demon when it was in charge.
So
That's weird.
I just bought a case of wine. That's not weird, I'm just pleased with myself.