well my sister is at it again. making my family miserable.
My mom dropped her off at her friends house last night at 7:30 by 8 she was arrested for driving someone else's car under the influence without a license. Which makes perfect sense because there is always a cop or two watching her which I don't have a problem with, I would watch her too. But if the cops are always watching you it is EXTRA stupid to do something like that. The other reason I am especially pissed off is we knew that this friend of hers was bad news but Gina (my sister) is always saying she doesnt use or drink because she's pregnant. And we accepted that because in a perfect world being pregnant WOULD keep someone from using and sometimes my mom and I indulge ourselves by pretending we live in a perfect world. But of course we dont, and this chick has been drinking and using with Gina for months. So that is doubly depressing.
Not to mention that Gina is also on probation which means that she will now GO TO JAIL do not pass go do NOT collect 200 dollars. If I had jail looming over me I would be terrified and I would be on my best behavior. But not Gina. Gina doesnt feel ANYTHING. she doesnt care if she goes to jail she doesnt care if she gets hit by truck. There is no way to deal wit a person like that.
I had just been telling someone today how well she has been doing but of course it has all been a big lie. She has been using this whole time. I knew it too. I just like to lie to myself.
I was telling my mom that things have been going really well because we have been in extreme denial. Well guess what Im glad we were in denial because it made things easier on US. This bullshit fall of hers was inevitable at least this way we weren't suffering all the way to the drop.
Im also pissed because my mom has been stressed about other things and she really wants to go drink and gamble (she is in recovery for both). Now it is going to be even harder for her to deal with those compulsions. My sister is so selfish. I don't understand why i always have to be the one that gets everything dumped on her. It would be so easy for me to turn to drugs or alcohol or gambling to try and ease the strain of my stupid life but I dont. why because that is not how life is. You don't get to run away and live in a stupor just because you fucking want to, just because it would be easier. Im just pissed off right now.
I really REALLY want to go into my sisters room drag her stupid ass out of her bed and pummel her head into the floor. But I wont, not only because it is morally wrong but also because im not even supposed to know about what happened. My mom told my sister she wouldnt tell me. Yay. Ill have fun keeping this to myself.