fade
Staff member
Whatever "baww" means.
For the 3 people in the world that follow my comic, you've probably noticed I've not updated it in a loooong time. Why you ask? Well, you probably didn't, but I'll answer anyway.
While I know it's not as dramatic as a relationship baww, I have been having some serious blockage of the artistic kind. It's the weirdest inverse relationship, too. I'm at the part of the story where things start moving very quickly, and real things start developing. I think that's actually part of the problem. I'm self-sabotaging a bit--something I'm famous for--I think. I've got the basic story planned out for ages, but turning that into a decently paced, visually interesting story is difficult. I think I like driving away any growing readership. Time was, back on the original image boards, Fade was actually in the top 10% of webcomics on the web, according to the indices. But I stopped updating, and down she went. Self-sabotage achieved. Success means pressure, pressure means stress, etc.
I need to buckle down and write, but something about that feels unnatural and forced. I like the organic feel of writing page-to-page with a overlain outline. But that leads to slow writing. Another issue I'm having is that I really actually like the art on the last few pages (which I rarely like), and I know by virtue of the story pieces to come that the next pages won't be interesting.
Finally, I've been reading tvtropes. That's bad for a writer, I think, because everything I think of seems to be overdone. I really want to tell the story and motivations of a gen-X superhero, even as gen-X fades into the adult wallpaper. I want some realism. I want the character to be a believable introvert, without resorting to stupid plots like "protagonist magically becomes extrovert, because somehow that's better".
Anyway, I don't know what kind of replies I expect if any, but it is cathartic to talk about it. My editor and I have spoken, but even though she can be harsh and cruel, I need a new perspective. Thanks.
For the 3 people in the world that follow my comic, you've probably noticed I've not updated it in a loooong time. Why you ask? Well, you probably didn't, but I'll answer anyway.
While I know it's not as dramatic as a relationship baww, I have been having some serious blockage of the artistic kind. It's the weirdest inverse relationship, too. I'm at the part of the story where things start moving very quickly, and real things start developing. I think that's actually part of the problem. I'm self-sabotaging a bit--something I'm famous for--I think. I've got the basic story planned out for ages, but turning that into a decently paced, visually interesting story is difficult. I think I like driving away any growing readership. Time was, back on the original image boards, Fade was actually in the top 10% of webcomics on the web, according to the indices. But I stopped updating, and down she went. Self-sabotage achieved. Success means pressure, pressure means stress, etc.
I need to buckle down and write, but something about that feels unnatural and forced. I like the organic feel of writing page-to-page with a overlain outline. But that leads to slow writing. Another issue I'm having is that I really actually like the art on the last few pages (which I rarely like), and I know by virtue of the story pieces to come that the next pages won't be interesting.
Finally, I've been reading tvtropes. That's bad for a writer, I think, because everything I think of seems to be overdone. I really want to tell the story and motivations of a gen-X superhero, even as gen-X fades into the adult wallpaper. I want some realism. I want the character to be a believable introvert, without resorting to stupid plots like "protagonist magically becomes extrovert, because somehow that's better".
Anyway, I don't know what kind of replies I expect if any, but it is cathartic to talk about it. My editor and I have spoken, but even though she can be harsh and cruel, I need a new perspective. Thanks.
