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figmentPez

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UGH, why is food so hard to fix when you're sick? I'm hungry but I don't want to stand long enough to make anything that I have on hand.
 
So, way back in 2013, I submitted A Touch of Magic to Baen Books, and didn't tell anyone. They'd pretty much be the publisher of my dreams--I've read Baen authors since high school in the mid-80's.

They finally got back to me today..

Thank you for your patience as we considered your novel. Your prose was much better than most of what we receive; however, your novel did not seem to have the high stakes and consistency that we find our readers prefer. Therefore, it does not seem right for us.

Due to the volume of manuscripts we receive and the press of other business it is impossible for us to go into particulars. Please do not take this rejection as necessarily a reflection on your work; we can accept fewer than one percent of the manuscripts submitted to us.

Best of luck in another market.
Sigh...ah well. At least I can soothe the hurt with the realization that at least the books are selling.
 
So...something had come up. A minor annoyance that i can't get into right now.

But it does mean I'll miss the contest tonight.

Can I ask for a stand in?
 
I just spent way too much time reading anti-vaccine stuff trying to understand it. I guess I get the fear and the willful ignorance...but something bothers me. It almost sound like these people thinking having an autistic child is the end of the world.

Wouldn't it be worst for your child to die from a preventable disease like measles or something? I mean, how much must you despise autistic people if you'd rather your kid be sick or die than be autistic?
I know this has been talked to death days ago, but I've been without the 'net as I'm out of town. I just wanted to add that, while I vehemently disagree with these people regarding their beliefs about vaccination, I don't think it's a 'I'd rather they got sick," or "Autism is the worst thing."

I think, when autism manifests itself, they want something to blame, some explanation - why me, why my son/daughter? why do we have to face these challenges/life isn't fair.... Etc. It's not necessarily that they hate autistic people or love their kids less, but they believe that this challenge has a root cause that 'If only I'd known...'

Sort of the comfort of the conspiracy theorist: it may be unreasonable and awful to suppose that the government orchestrated terrorist attacks, but in a perverse sense of the world: it's much nicer to think it's all organised, rather than chaotic and unpreventable.
 

GasBandit

Staff member
Welp, those allergies and sinus drainage has graduated to a rattling cough and sore throat. Upper Respiratory infection, ahoy!
 

fade

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Note to self: not 20 anymore. I love to rollerblade and while I stuck the first few jumps the last one got me. Was wearing pads but my arm twisted in a weird way. And the twisting managed to pull back the elbow pad on that arm, so I have a nice road rash too.

The best part was I had just told my kids not to try it until they got more experience.
 

Cajungal

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I don't like feeling jealous. It's a nasty feeling. A teacher won a contest for our school's yearly fundraiser and took home an insane amount of money.

On one hand, I'm so happy a teacher won, because when the parents win it, it's like handing them lunch money or change for tolls. And it couldn't have happened to a sweeter person. Plus they just had a kid, so it's wonderful timing for them. On the other hand, gross, petty feeling. Mrauugh, makes me cringe.
 
I hate trying to sleep now. Being alone with my own thoughts is not a good thing anymore. Not suicidal, but definitely brings me to tears every time.
 
I hate trying to sleep now. Being alone with my own thoughts is not a good thing anymore. Not suicidal, but definitely brings me to tears every time.
I was just thinking about the end of the hyperbole and a half depression comic reading your post. while your situation is not funny, and I am not making light of it, I am amused by my own experience with those feelings. I fucking hate everything, but what I hate most of all is myself and my existence. my birth is a blotch on my family's honor and my life an affront to my loved ones happiness. however, you know what? I don't care, I could fuck up worse, I don't deny it, but I just don't care anymore. I am going to stuff my body full of chemicals until I taste the color purple! I am a laughing stock to my friends, and a begrudged member of my family, but with every passing day I grow a little more tolerant of this constant feeling of being miserable.

Maybe I will never feel real happiness again, maybe I will. I am just going to keep taking it one day at a time and watching stupid anime before I fall asleep to try to numb those horrid thoughts that dog me in my last waking moments every night.
 
I still haven't seen the first Captain America, so I was going to watch it after work.... only to find it's no longer on Netflix streaming. My sister is doing a conference call for her work, so I can't put on the Zeppelin album I bought over the weekend 'cause I don't want to be tied to the headphones. All my iOS games of choice are in the middle of tasks that still have hours left to complete.

I think I'll just go to bed. :p

(edit: or not. Lawn guys are here. So much for peace and quiet.)
 
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I hate trying to sleep now. Being alone with my own thoughts is not a good thing anymore. Not suicidal, but definitely brings me to tears every time.
I was just thinking about the end of the hyperbole and a half depression comic reading your post. while your situation is not funny, and I am not making light of it, I am amused by my own experience with those feelings. I fucking hate everything, but what I hate most of all is myself and my existence. my birth is a blotch on my family's honor and my life an affront to my loved ones happiness. however, you know what? I don't care, I could fuck up worse, I don't deny it, but I just don't care anymore. I am going to stuff my body full of chemicals until I taste the color purple! I am a laughing stock to my friends, and a begrudged member of my family, but with every passing day I grow a little more tolerant of this constant feeling of being miserable.

Maybe I will never feel real happiness again, maybe I will. I am just going to keep taking it one day at a time and watching stupid anime before I fall asleep to try to numb those horrid thoughts that dog me in my last waking moments every night.
Just had a severe breakdown last night. Can't say I don't sympathise with you both
 
Just had a severe breakdown last night. Can't say I don't sympathise with you both
Surprisingly I am not a negative person for the most part. I am just fueled by fury. My default mode is bitching. I am very stable just constantly pissed off and haunted by all the shit in my life. I feel your pain brother, stay strong, I am rooting for you!
 
I wish I felt attractive. I know my friends have told me otherwise, but after everything I've been through relationship-wise, I often feel like this:
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doomdragon6

Staff member
Things are pretty well over with me and Girl. Which is a shame, because she was super awesome, and showed me a glimpse of what a healthy relationship could look like. She'll be stuck in my head for a while and now I'll be overly aware of everything she does, and compare any girl I talk to to her. And that frustrates me. But whatever.

I should have known better than to try to get involved with someone so much younger than me. She's pretty much in the "figuring out what the hell this whole being a person thing is" stage.

It's so weird for things to be going so utterly well, and then to have the other person do a complete 180 and decide that they aren't interested in anything at all.

Ah wells.

In other news, my great uncle who has been suffering from dementia for a few years now (and had completely forgotten everyone and everything to the point of barely functioning) passed away this morning, which cancelled my plans for the only road trip I've had a chance at in years. I wish I wasn't frustrated by that, but I am. His funeral is this weekend, but I can't be sad really. He lived a full life (to 92) and like I said, he's been gone mentally for years now. His body checking out was just a formality. It's hardest on my great aunt, obviously, since her husband of however many years forgot who she was, was physically infirm for a year, then died.

So, those plans were replaced by going to an end-of-the-semester party hosted by the ex-boyfriend of Girl up above. Woo? Then tomorrow I'll be heading back to my hometown to prepare for funeral stuff.

Then I've got about a week of absolute nothing to do before a week of nonstop working. Soooooooo yeah. Not as bad as a lot of you, but that's my whine.
 
Somehow setting my headphones on the table broke it internally, because only one ear works.

Fuck. I'm getting my hours cut for the next two weeks thanks to the latest government cover-up, so this is not a good time for getting a new set, but they help me sleep ...
 
Somehow setting my headphones on the table broke it internally, because only one ear works.

Fuck. I'm getting my hours cut for the next two weeks thanks to the latest government cover-up, so this is not a good time for getting a new set, but they help me sleep ...
If they're wired headphones, it's most likely a break in the wire somewhere, usually near where they enter the ear-portion.
 
If they're wired headphones, it's most likely a break in the wire somewhere, usually near where they enter the ear-portion.
I know; it's just that every time that's happened before, I could pinpoint why. I tugged them by accident, I set my laptop on the cord, I threw them across the living room after I finished mowing the lawn (I was young!) ...

This time, no apparent reason. They were working one minute, and then stopped the next. I thought something was wrong with the computer sound output at first because there just didn't seem to be a cause to the problem on the headphone side this time.
 
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