I'm so lonely. Even though I just started a new job at my college, and I'm constantly either working or studying, it's not enough to take my mind off of the soul-crushing emptiness I feel. All of my friends have moved away or are now busy with families of their own. I feel like a fat ugly lump, just wasting space until my time is up. This is the first time in quite a while I've even whined about how I feel, because I know that it won't make a difference about anything. I can't even cry anymore, even though I want to, because I'm all dried up. I'm not suicidal, because I'm a coward when it comes to that, but I'll be honest when I say that I'm disappointed when I wake up in the mornings. I'm just tired of feeling like I'm the punchline to some divine joke.