What does depression feel like?
I know what it's like for me and what a few others have told me about their experiences. I'm curious what you think it should feel like for you.
For me, when I'm depressed it feels like an unbearable sadness that just weighs on you. Usually it's accompanied by not being able to see a better way, an escape, a way out, basically trapped in your miserable suffering until something changes.
Here, that's not what I'm experiencing. It's a moderate lethargy, where I don't feel like doing the things I'd normally want to do. I definitely sleep a bunch-- I actually woke up 4 hours ago and took 3 naps before getting up. Took several naps past few days. Anyway, it just feels hard to care. I'm fine when I'm with friends, but when I'm not around then I'm reminded of how pointless and empty it feels, and none of them -really-, -truly- care.
I think I'm just dwelling on my ex situation, and I've hit a point where I don't know what to do about it, so I'm stretching myself in both directions (do something, don't do something) to the point that I'm mentally exhausted and just don't want to do anything.
Even today, I've got a full-ass day ahead of me full of potential, and really I just want to sleep it by. I don't even want to spend time doing nothing, like watching a show. Just wanna sleep. Til my next "marker", like "On Monday this happens. Let's sleep til that. On Friday this happens. Let's sleep til that."
Again, I'm taking care of my responsibilities, but all the other stuff is falling by the wayside.