So, that girl I mentioned in the
Minor Victory thread? She offered to go for coffee this afternoon after she was done her nanny job. So I biked downtown to meet her.
THREE AND A HALF HOURS LATER, I biked home.
And...look, I've met plenty of people. I've dated girls. I've been in love. But I've never been...astonished.
She's amazing. We both admitted there was like this instant connection. She's into yoga. She meditates. She used to bike in Toronto (and looking to buy a bike here). One of her favourite movies is What Dreams May Come (she almost gasped in surprise when I mentioned it). Hell, she even said she also had a personal reason for Superman being one of her favourites. She wants to try new things and even showed an interest in reading more comics. The more I learned about her, the more I swear there was a hidden camera somewhere, waiting for the host to pop out after the punchline.
We discussed several possibilities to see each other again. Her joining me to a yoga class. She volunteered to be a "victim" to practice on for yoga instructing. I offered to drive her to Value Village and help her get some things for her new place. Or maybe going on a long bike ride on the trails around here. She even invited me to the place she goes for meditation.
She's just...wow. WOW. I've never said this about any girl before, but...I want to marry this girl.
I can hear what some of you are saying: "Holy shit, Nick, she sounds amazing and almost perfect for you! But why is this in the Whine thread?"
Because I am utterly terrified I'll fuck this up. This is Hopeless Romantic Nick in overdrive. I fully understand that I'm probably overreacting here. But I'm so insecure when it comes to dating, relationships, and anything like that that I'm terrified I'll get too overzealous and scare her away. She just got out of a relationship right before she moved and she admits she's still hurting from that. We talked about a LOT of things in those three and a half hours, including dating and relationships. I told her about my overzealousness, too. Really, we were both open about...everything. It was refreshing to meet someone who comes across as genuine and open like I like to think I am.
And I just know I'm gonna fuck this up.