HF Confessions (Anonymous or Otherwise)

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Kitty Sinatra

And my degree is utterly worthless too. Who gives a shit about a B.A in English Writing?
that BA should be enough to move on to an MBA if you so choose, and that'll net you some sweet ass jobs wrecking the economy while you profit.
 
Non-anonymous confession for me as well.

I really want to drop out of college. The whole experience is miserable, and I don't want to do it anymore. I'm supposed to be writing my essay now but I just can't. Every time I sit down to write I Just freak out and then go off to do something else.

And I know I shouldn't, and I probably won't drop out. But GODDAMN am sick of this. And my degree is utterly worthless too. Who gives a shit about a B.A in English Writing?

I just want to be done with this period of my life and move on.
Having that piece of paper that says you may know something about what you studied is a good thing to have - even if it's something you may not totally like. My former manager had an English degree yet he did IT Network Support - companies like the fact that you have that piece of paper - looks "good" to the corporate types.

An example of how it can hurt you to not have a degree anymore - my dad, who went to work right out of high school, went for 21 months (back in the early 2000's) without a job after getting laid off - lots of companies wouldn't even talk to him because of not having that piece of paper, even though his experience more than made up for that lack of knowledge (he found this out through friends).

The second biggest thing that helps you out with getting jobs (esp. in this market) is knowing people, but that's besides my point above.
 
Non-anonymous confession for me as well.

I really want to drop out of college. The whole experience is miserable, and I don't want to do it anymore. I'm supposed to be writing my essay now but I just can't. Every time I sit down to write I Just freak out and then go off to do something else.

And I know I shouldn't, and I probably won't drop out. But GODDAMN am sick of this. And my degree is utterly worthless too. Who gives a shit about a B.A in English Writing?

I just want to be done with this period of my life and move on.
Editing. You're in good for editing. I have an English major and it's the field I was picked up in.
 

ElJuski

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My english degree is basically tacked up against my wall, but it's not completely useless. Just get your degree. Even if it is like a highschool diploma in this day and age.

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that said, hopefully the economy picks up so us B.A. carrying middle-men can get employed at offices again for having "people skills".
 
I was 16, and I didn't want to take responsibility for my unborn child. We decided to get an abortion, even though I had always been against them. I regret it every day, and I'd do almost anything to go back and do it differently, but assholes who spout pro-life bullshit without having been in that situation themselves really piss me off.
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Morgoth

My english degree is basically tacked up against my wall, but it's not completely useless. Just get your degree. Even if it is like a highschool diploma in this day and age.

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that said, hopefully the economy picks up so us B.A. carrying middle-men can get employed at offices again for having "people skills".

It seems like he hates doing what he's doing. Why pressure yourself through that? He really sounds like he's trapped in his own life.
 

ElJuski

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My english degree is basically tacked up against my wall, but it's not completely useless. Just get your degree. Even if it is like a highschool diploma in this day and age.

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that said, hopefully the economy picks up so us B.A. carrying middle-men can get employed at offices again for having "people skills".

It seems like he hates doing what he's doing. Why pressure yourself through that? He really sounds like he's trapped in his own life.[/QUOTE]

No, it seems like he's burnt out with the college workload. There's a slight difference.
 
I got a confession I can post here without too much issue/coming back at me:

Sometimes I wonder if I'm going to make anything of myself. I'm 28, nearly 30, and I have nothing to show for it careerwise. I have no college hours, but to be honest I have no drive/motivation to actually go to college. I was one of those students with a high IQ and amazing test scores, but my day to day grades were shit because I could never give a damn enough to actually do my schoolwork. Hell, I didn't even graduate HS and ended up getting a GED.

Right now my current goal is to get into Chefing after my GF finishes her teaching degree, moving to a larger city nearby and attending Culinary School. I figure I can get though that, spend a few years Chefing before attempting my real goal career, being a Food Critic. While I know I'll never get rich doing it, it's truly my dream job and the one I'd like to do till the day I keel over a fine meal.

Problem is, I have trouble with motivation at times and worry that perhaps I'll lose motivation partway through my path to my goal, lose my way, and end up at temporary jobs till I'm 50. Or that I'm already too old to really get into the profession at a young enough age.
 
I was 16, and I didn't want to take responsibility for my unborn child. We decided to get an abortion, even though I had always been against them. I regret it every day, and I'd do almost anything to go back and do it differently, but assholes who spout pro-life bullshit without having been in that situation themselves really piss me off.
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In b4 shitstorm.
 
Problem is, I have trouble with motivation at times and worry that perhaps I'll lose motivation partway through my path to my goal, lose my way, and end up at temporary jobs till I'm 50. Or that I'm already too old to really get into the profession at a young enough age.
Well, you have people who want to see you succeed, both here and probably in real life. I mean, look at how people here try to beat somebody into shape if they come with problems re: school or romance or seeking employment.

Even though a lot of people may not say anything, I'm sure there are quite a few of us who want to see people we know, like you, succeed. So give it a try.

Besides, that's putting the cart before the horse. Get into culinary school first, then worry about being motivated.
 
Here's another confession related to my last one. The people at my current job want me to stay, hoping I'll apply for the permanent position when (if) they get it approved. I'll apply, but I really, really hope that I get a job offer somewhere else. I'm ready to move.
 
Here is one that I don't mind if people know who posted it.


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I hate crowds and I usually have a contempt towards most strangers I see walking past me. Heck even some people I have known for years I secretly hold in contempt. I know it's wrong but for some reason I can never shake the feeling. I just view humanity as a whole as a usually nothing more than a bunch of kids mindlessly bickering. Heck even at times I despise myself cause I know that I really am not any better than most of the people that I look down on especially not if I constantly see people in that light. Now I do like people but at the same time I dislike them. I try not to look at the general populace like that and there is a good chance that they are good people. I think the main thing is that I have seen people hurt me and hurt my family and I feel better just assuming the worst about them. Now I don't feel that way all the time but there are times when I just can't help but feel that way.
 
I was 16, and I didn't want to take responsibility for my unborn child. We decided to get an abortion, even though I had always been against them. I regret it every day, and I'd do almost anything to go back and do it differently, but assholes who spout pro-life bullshit without having been in that situation themselves really piss me off.
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In b4 shitstorm.[/QUOTE]

*shrug*

My ex had an abortion before we got together. Never really affected her as much, though I'm sure she kept most of anything about it that bothered her to herself.

I can say that the person who made this confession is right. If you're Pro-Life, that's fine, but don't yell at someone who's gone through the process when you have no ground to stand on (vs them anyway).
 
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Morgoth

I was 16, and I didn't want to take responsibility for my unborn child. We decided to get an abortion, even though I had always been against them. I regret it every day, and I'd do almost anything to go back and do it differently, but assholes who spout pro-life bullshit without having been in that situation themselves really piss me off.
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In b4 shitstorm.[/quote]

*shrug*

My ex had an abortion before we got together. Never really affected her as much, though I'm sure she kept most of anything about it that bothered her to herself.

I can say that the person who made this confession is right. If you're Pro-Life, that's fine, but don't yell at someone who's gone through the process when you have no ground to stand on (vs them anyway).[/QUOTE]


I am Pro-Choice for society and Pro-Life personally.
 
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Steven Soderburgin

I was 16, and I didn't want to take responsibility for my unborn child. We decided to get an abortion, even though I had always been against them. I regret it every day, and I'd do almost anything to go back and do it differently, but assholes who spout pro-life bullshit without having been in that situation themselves really piss me off.
Hey, person. I'm sorry that you had to make that tough decision, but you probably made the right one. I have never had to make that decision, and as a male, I'll never personally go through this, but I do know people who have, and it's always tough. I'm glad that the resources were available for you to be able to make the choice.

Have you considered seeing a counselor or therapist about your regret and grief? It might be something to consider. But be strong, and know that when you choose to have a child, you will be in a much better position to give it the life that it deserves.
 
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Morgoth

I am Pro-Choice for society and Pro-Life personally.
So you... choose... to not abort.[/QUOTE]

I'm officially a Pro-Choice person, meaning that I don't think that abortions should be outlawed and all that jazz.

Personally, I'm Pro-Life, meaning if I were to knock up my wife for a third time, we'd keep the baby, despite it possibly being hard on us financially.
 
I thought of another one, a bit on the "bawww" side:

I'm actually afraid I love my GF. All this time I was in it for the "ease of life" that being with her provided. Life was easy for me, I never worried about much, I got everything I wanted out of it. The only times I wanted out, were times where I focused on, what now seems, insignificant issues (oh my god, she's not a gamer/sci-fi geek).

Recently I had a chance to experience life without her for a few days, and even get to date Gamer/SciFi girls..... I didn't do it. I spent 5 days away from her and was ornery the entire time. I got home and we almost split up.... from HER side. I actually found myself fighting the rest of the night for her to STAY. It was so surreal. I felt like I was watching myself do it all. I realized at that point, there WAS something there. Something I couldn't pinpoint or describe with words, but when it came down to it, I didn't want to be apart from her....
 

Dave

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I thought of another one, a bit on the "bawww" side:

I'm actually afraid I love my GF. All this time I was in it for the "ease of life" that being with her provided. Life was easy for me, I never worried about much, I got everything I wanted out of it. The only times I wanted out, were times where I focused on, what now seems, insignificant issues (oh my god, she's not a gamer/sci-fi geek).

Recently I had a chance to experience life without her for a few days, and even get to date Gamer/SciFi girls..... I didn't do it. I spent 5 days away from her and was ornery the entire time. I got home and we almost split up.... from HER side. I actually found myself fighting the rest of the night for her to STAY. It was so surreal. I felt like I was watching myself do it all. I realized at that point, there WAS something there. Something I couldn't pinpoint or describe with words, but when it came down to it, I didn't want to be apart from her....
And Shego's heart grew three sizes that day.

(Seriously, though, congrats!)
 
I thought of another one, a bit on the "bawww" side:

I'm actually afraid I love my GF. All this time I was in it for the "ease of life" that being with her provided. Life was easy for me, I never worried about much, I got everything I wanted out of it. The only times I wanted out, were times where I focused on, what now seems, insignificant issues (oh my god, she's not a gamer/sci-fi geek).

Recently I had a chance to experience life without her for a few days, and even get to date Gamer/SciFi girls..... I didn't do it. I spent 5 days away from her and was ornery the entire time. I got home and we almost split up.... from HER side. I actually found myself fighting the rest of the night for her to STAY. It was so surreal. I felt like I was watching myself do it all. I realized at that point, there WAS something there. Something I couldn't pinpoint or describe with words, but when it came down to it, I didn't want to be apart from her....
But you didn't break up, did you??
 
No, we're still together now, and she's happier than before. I on the other hand, am a bit "weirded out" by it.

I mean, she doesn't even "really" know me or understand me. Yet she loves me so intensely. (the whole reason she wanted to leave was because she didn't think I was in the relationship for the long haul and didn't think I wanted more than what we have, which at the time, she was right for calling me out on it)

I put on a mask in my day to day life, being what society deems "acceptable" behavior, even around her... the strange part is, pretending to be something different around her doesn't bother me the same way as doing it everywherelse.
 
No, we're still together now, and she's happier than before. I on the other hand, am a bit "weirded out" by it.

I mean, she doesn't even "really" know me or understand me. Yet she loves me so intensely. (the whole reason she wanted to leave was because she didn't think I was in the relationship for the long haul and didn't think I wanted more than what we have, which at the time, she was right for calling me out on it)

I put on a mask in my day to day life, being what society deems "acceptable" behavior, even around her... the strange part is, pretending to be something different around her doesn't bother me the same way as doing it everywherelse.
Well, that's also part of love, isn't it? I say "Congratulations"!
 
Q

Qonas

Here is one that I don't mind if people know who posted it.


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I hate crowds and I usually have a contempt towards most strangers I see walking past me. Heck even some people I have known for years I secretly hold in contempt. I know it's wrong but for some reason I can never shake the feeling. I just view humanity as a whole as a usually nothing more than a bunch of kids mindlessly bickering. Heck even at times I despise myself cause I know that I really am not any better than most of the people that I look down on especially not if I constantly see people in that light. Now I do like people but at the same time I dislike them. I try not to look at the general populace like that and there is a good chance that they are good people. I think the main thing is that I have seen people hurt me and hurt my family and I feel better just assuming the worst about them. Now I don't feel that way all the time but there are times when I just can't help but feel that way.
Right there with ya all the way on this one. I like people one-on-one, can handle being around a group of friends, but put me in a public place or surround me with a crowd and I turn into the most visibly angry misanthrope you could imagine. I hold a very, very dim view of humanity in general (kids bickering is good, I prefer kids whining "me-me-me!" and pushing each other over to be the one swinging on that last open swing on the playground). It's the old "a person is smart, people are dumb panicky animals" adage just taken to the next step.
 
I sometimes can't help but feel that I completely depend on my parent's "contacts" to do stuff. It's not exactly like that, because I, for example, worked for almost a year in a newspaper by my own means (even if i also made myself fired with these same means and a little extra help form the economic recession), and have been considered an exceptional writer by both the teachers in the only scriptwriting course I've taken (one of them was one of the most important script doctors and screenwriters in the spanish speaking world though). I also finished my studies without any interventions by my parents...

But, of course, I got to study in a private university thanks to their money, I got a job (i'm on trial) screenwriting thanks to them, and some other minor or not so minor details during my still short career.

EDIT: Also, I have never had to work to live.
 
I LOVED the Matrix sequels when they first came out. I bought them on DVD and their soundtracks and was a HUGE fan.

This has faded somewhat but I still go back and watch them every once in a while, in a secret way, like one might with pornography.
:)
 

Dave

Staff member
EDIT: Also, I have never had to work to live.
Confession: I seriously feel envy at people who can say things like this.

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Also, this one is old enough that I think I can say it now without looking like a total whore:

When I first started Halforum, I put myself in some pretty hefty debt. With the server move from SiteGrounds to Arvixe and the domain registration I was in the hole fairly deep. The donations that were given put me back to about even but I've been paying for the site month to month since then. I know I said that I paid for 2 years but I didn't want anyone to know where the money really went.
 
M

Morgoth

I LOVED the Matrix sequels when they first came out. I bought them on DVD and their soundtracks and was a HUGE fan.

This has faded somewhat but I still go back and watch them every once in a while, in a secret way, like one might with pornography.
:)

Why is this an anonymous confession? My rational is that everyone who hated the Matrix sequels was just too dumb to get them. BOOYA! Take that Rotten Tomatoes!

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I never correct people when they give me too much change, and that makes me feel guilty. :(
I almost made more than my weekly paycheck doing that when I was a teller. :paranoid:[/QUOTE]


I like your style. I'd do that kind of crap working at the grocery store, meaningless jobs while in high school through med school. For minimum wage, they're lucky I didn't let hobo's off the street and take what they wanted. I definitely take a Randal Grave's viewpoint on clerk positions.
 
T

ThatNickGuy

Also, this one is old enough that I think I can say it now without looking like a total whore:

When I first started Halforum, I put myself in some pretty hefty debt. With the server move from SiteGrounds to Arvixe and the domain registration I was in the hole fairly deep. The donations that were given put me back to about even but I've been paying for the site month to month since then. I know I said that I paid for 2 years but I didn't want anyone to know where the money really went.
:eek:

:eek:

:(
 
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