Hey, man. Much as I’d like to, I can’t edit History.
I leave that to Fox News.
—Patrick
Wasabi's Whatever Thread (AMA and journal)
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I leave that to Fox News.
—Patrick
So I've been on this new thing for about 2 days. I was told since I'm going from SSRI to SSRI that I don't have to taper or cross-taper. It's a direct switch. So I don't know if I'll feel the effects in about 2 weeks like when I first started my old meds or sooner since the new one is just a different SSRI. I'm hopeful this will work.
Feeling a difference maybe? I've been less tired which has been a great concern for me. Over the past few months I've been sleeping sometimes up to 10 hours if I don't use an alarm clock. Like dead asleep as soon as I get in bed and straight through for 10 hours. Granted, I have had times when I can understand being exhausted like when I just got back from Boston. But not all the time.
I've also noticed I'm starting to feel more interest in doing stuff again. I'm thinking about exercise and how I can fit it into my schedule without having to get up at 5am (less tired does not mean I'm more of a morning person). It's been a long time since I felt like being active. Hopefully this isn't temporary.
I've also noticed I'm starting to feel more interest in doing stuff again. I'm thinking about exercise and how I can fit it into my schedule without having to get up at 5am (less tired does not mean I'm more of a morning person). It's been a long time since I felt like being active. Hopefully this isn't temporary.
Today I realized I'm not feeling as fuzzy-headed as I have been in recent months (despite the anime thread). I'm tired from sleeping on the air mattress while my mom visits, but I can still think clearly. This is good.
Beefore my mom came to visit she told me my cousin is effectively missing. She was last heard from in February. She's been living on the streets in Philadelphia for a while due to her heroin addiction. Last time she spoke to her mom she said a guy was going to give a guy her ID and he was going to get her a plane ticket to CA. I almost cried at work today. I had to attend a meeting where the topic of the main presentation was sex trafficking. So many signs she was at risk, even without considering her substance use. It was painful to realize she's most likely a victim of trafficking.
I took a mental health day. I had flex time, so why not. I'm currently sitting in my house without pants and playing video games while drinking a MOAC (4 shots of espresso topped with house coffee). I'm living the dream over here. LOL
I found my ability to cry again. When I was on Zoloft I would often feel like I was going to cry, but it never happened. I'd just have the lump in my throat feeling and that's it. On the occasions where I did cry I was so completely overwhelmed that it was like the cork blew off. It was unsettling because I am more emotional than that and I have never found it to be a problem.
This week I had a very minor, but personally hurtful, thing upset me at work. I've actually shed some tears over it. I feel like telling people, "Holy shit I'm human!"
On that note...I'm also starting to see that people at work don't realize that things do bother me. I keep it to myself in the name of professionalism, but I need to work on finding the balance so I don't come off as an automaton or suddenly over-sensitive.
This week I had a very minor, but personally hurtful, thing upset me at work. I've actually shed some tears over it. I feel like telling people, "Holy shit I'm human!"
On that note...I'm also starting to see that people at work don't realize that things do bother me. I keep it to myself in the name of professionalism, but I need to work on finding the balance so I don't come off as an automaton or suddenly over-sensitive.
They found her alive and still in Philadelphia.
Why do people look at me weird when I say I like doing research? I'm good at searching for information in journals and other publications. I like reading and learning more about subjects. I kinda like "falling down the rabbit hole", too, unless it's wasting time. Be happy I like it because that means you don't have to do it!
I had a migraine that completely knocked me on my ass.
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I am so much better today. My head was hurting so bad that I woke up before my alarm clock, unable to sleep from the pain. I also had some awful post-nasal drip. Got myself water to drink, had to use the bathroom, and then ended up dry heaving into the trashcan while I was on the toilet. I called out from work. I quarantined myself in our bedroom so if I was coming down with something I wouldn't be around the kids. I slept from 6am - 9am. Got some more water and Tylenol. Checked my temperature just in case (no fever). Went back to sleep until about 12:30pm. Ate a bagel, talked with Aussie, and went back to sleep from about 3pm - 7pm. Ate some dinner, sat up with Aussie and the kids, then went back to sleep from midnight - 8am.
Since I never had any other episode of nausea or vomiting and had no other gastrointestinal issues all day, I think it's safe to blame it on the combination of the headache and postnasal drip rather than a virus. I can't believe how much I slept. I also can't believe how much energy I have today.
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I am so much better today. My head was hurting so bad that I woke up before my alarm clock, unable to sleep from the pain. I also had some awful post-nasal drip. Got myself water to drink, had to use the bathroom, and then ended up dry heaving into the trashcan while I was on the toilet. I called out from work. I quarantined myself in our bedroom so if I was coming down with something I wouldn't be around the kids. I slept from 6am - 9am. Got some more water and Tylenol. Checked my temperature just in case (no fever). Went back to sleep until about 12:30pm. Ate a bagel, talked with Aussie, and went back to sleep from about 3pm - 7pm. Ate some dinner, sat up with Aussie and the kids, then went back to sleep from midnight - 8am.
Since I never had any other episode of nausea or vomiting and had no other gastrointestinal issues all day, I think it's safe to blame it on the combination of the headache and postnasal drip rather than a virus. I can't believe how much I slept. I also can't believe how much energy I have today.
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One of my work friends is moving back to the mainland. Tonight was a going away party for her. I didn't go and I feel like shit for it. I don't like enough people in my office to want to voluntarily spend time with them on my days off. I am going to a lunch tomorrow with her and two mutual friends. I can't help but think this kind of thing does me no favors as far as my relationships with people in the office is concerned. I'm a not-so-social social worker.
I like many of the people at work well enough, but because I have such a long commute, I don’t come to the welcome/farewell parties, I don’t “go out” after work, and I rarely come to the bowling/hide-n-seek/tug-o-war “forced fun” events. Thing is, there are people I actually DO like well enough that I want to show/participate, but the commute just makes it a non-starter.
So I guess I can say I know where you’re coming from. Solidarity, and all that. And I can agree with you that yes, it does suck.
—Patrick
My company has a company picnic every year, on a Saturday.
I worked here 7 years before I finally went to one.
Something fun I made on Google's Santa's Workshop. I didn't have much choice in hair/skin colors because the elves are stamps.
I woke up in a good mood. That never happens. I'm not a morning person. At All. What's different? I don't know.
I think I have the flu. Not full blown, kill-me-now flu. A milder version because I'm vaccinated. Started Friday night with chills and achy joints. I've slept for 14 of the last 24 hours. My sinuses are irritated and I have a headache. I hope I don't pass this on to Aussie or Lily because they're going on a trip Wednesday. Trying to stay out of everyone's faces and keep surfaces clean.
But it's made me have angry dreams.
I'm also filling out paperwork for Noah to get into high school. He wants to be in a particular program that specializes in communication and technology. One public high school close to us offers it, but he needs a geographical exception to attend since it's out of our complex/district. I want to encourage his interests. I think he's very creative and the mini-films he's made are good for a 13-year-old using a phone and learning editing on his own. He's got a YouTube channel with a handful of followers, too.
But he's so damn smart. He's ranked #1 in his class. He's a walking encyclopedia when it comes to dinosaurs. He's curious about how things work. Why doesn't he want to do something in STEM? If he decides later that's what he wants to pursue, he won't have the college prep background. If I talk to him about it, he'll change his mind because he's a people-pleaser and not because it's what he truly wants. I don't want to be one of *those* parents who insist my children have to go into certain fields. I'm over-thinking and I know it. And this is all part of the "letting them go" process. It's hard.
But it's made me have angry dreams.
For some reason I needed to know the name of the standardized test that Lily's school uses. I couldn't find the principle's number in my phone (we're also friends outside of school). I couldn't get information from the internet. When I got her number, from my parents who were hiding it in a binder (??), the person who answered the phone at the school office told me she wasn't in and then made fun of my question.
Next dream I was playing Harry Potter with Lily. She had a broomstick kind of thing and part of it broke off. I asked her to go find me the wood glue in the cabinet. She brought back some kind of cleaning fluid. Then she brought me something like Lepage's mucilage glue (which I used to use at a great-aunts house for paper crafts). So I head into my parents' kitchen to get the wood glue from the cabinet. My dad is blocking my way because of course he is. I can see the glue on the second shelf, but it is much higher up than it would normally be. I get a chair and climb onto the countertop so I can reach the glue. Suddenly, it isn't there! Then I remember how angry I am at the principle and the person in the school office and start yelling about it all! I made myself wake up after that because I was pissed off for no real reason.
Next dream I was playing Harry Potter with Lily. She had a broomstick kind of thing and part of it broke off. I asked her to go find me the wood glue in the cabinet. She brought back some kind of cleaning fluid. Then she brought me something like Lepage's mucilage glue (which I used to use at a great-aunts house for paper crafts). So I head into my parents' kitchen to get the wood glue from the cabinet. My dad is blocking my way because of course he is. I can see the glue on the second shelf, but it is much higher up than it would normally be. I get a chair and climb onto the countertop so I can reach the glue. Suddenly, it isn't there! Then I remember how angry I am at the principle and the person in the school office and start yelling about it all! I made myself wake up after that because I was pissed off for no real reason.
I'm also filling out paperwork for Noah to get into high school. He wants to be in a particular program that specializes in communication and technology. One public high school close to us offers it, but he needs a geographical exception to attend since it's out of our complex/district. I want to encourage his interests. I think he's very creative and the mini-films he's made are good for a 13-year-old using a phone and learning editing on his own. He's got a YouTube channel with a handful of followers, too.
But he's so damn smart. He's ranked #1 in his class. He's a walking encyclopedia when it comes to dinosaurs. He's curious about how things work. Why doesn't he want to do something in STEM? If he decides later that's what he wants to pursue, he won't have the college prep background. If I talk to him about it, he'll change his mind because he's a people-pleaser and not because it's what he truly wants. I don't want to be one of *those* parents who insist my children have to go into certain fields. I'm over-thinking and I know it. And this is all part of the "letting them go" process. It's hard.
I've had a fever off and on since Saturday with it hitting 101 yesterday. Went to the doctor today. Doc said it sounds like flu, but maybe a cold. Definitely viral. Aussie had tried to get me to go to the ER on Monday since I couldn't get an appointment with my doctor until today. I didn't feel sick enough to go to the ER. Had I gone, though, they would have tested me for flu. Doc today said too late since it's past the 48 hours window. Back to work tomorrow.
I'm going to a conference again. This year it's mid-July in Grapevine, TX. Anything specific I should do while I'm there?
GasBandit
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I'll echo what Sparhawk said. Light, loose cotton clothes, sunscreen, big hat. I haven't done much of the touristy things around in that area other than Dealy Plaza myself, as I usually only stop in the DFW metroplex to visit someone specifically or to attend a con myself (SGC 2010 was the bomb yo).
Yeah I kinda figured about the heat and clothing. Is the DFW area usually humid? I've got to prepare for looking like Medusa if it is. LOL
GasBandit
Staff member
Extremely.
Oh good. My hair will take on a life of its own. Hats will be a mercy.
but not quite as humid as Houston.
It was 110, so no. Though tbh, the only difference between here and there was humidity, and my husband is crazy and refuses to wear shorts ever.
Wasabi and Grace get hugs, not you.
But you guys have virtually no humidity until monsoon season.