Hey look, DoomDragon is being emo about his historied love life again.
As you all know, I still love my ex, she still loves me, but we repel each other and by all accounts are toxic for each other.
Yet, I've been finding my recent endeavors in the dating game empty and hollow, and keep finding my thoughts back at Ex. She's ALWAYS around, all the same friends, etc. I avoid her when possible, but we see each other at least once a week.
Anyway, she recently started dating this dude and one of my friends who is also Ex's roommate offhandedly commented on how whenever he passes her door he can sometimes hear them getting intimate in there, and... That's just kind of stuck in my head. I can't talk at all, as I've had my fair share of playing around, but it's just been bothering me, even though it's literally none of my business, and nothing can really be "done" about that anyway. Probably doesn't help that I was her first.
I dunno man. The story of my love life is, I get crushes on people who aren't interested back, people get crushes on me who I'm not interested in, and then there's the constant attraction/repulsion of me and my ex. I have no doubt she'll break up with this dude before too long and then we'll start talking again and the cycle will repeat.
I'm just whining at you guys because my friends are tired of it. I'm tired of it myself, honestly. I'd just like to pretend I didn't know the things I know.