Whine like a baby, now with 500% more drama!

Good: Being important enough at work to know your job is never threatened unless you really, really fuck up, or the company goes under.
Bad: Being important enough at work that even when you call in sick, you have to leave instructions for things that have to be done in your absence and then spend the entire morning talking people through how to do said things over email.

Bleh.
 
I was cleaning up my bookmarks on Firefox today and I got a sad.

I finally deleted the You Can Play This link from my bookmarks.

RIP JW
 
God rest his soul. A true poet who leapt from this mortal coil of his own volition far to early. Vaya con dios jw!
 
Reading about you guys and the age difference thing... I start feeling so weird. My wife and I are only 6 months apart in age, and most of our closest married friends are within 2 years of each other.
 

doomdragon6

Staff member
Reading about you guys and the age difference thing... I start feeling so weird. My wife and I are only 6 months apart in age, and most of our closest married friends are within 2 years of each other.
Your wife -> 6 months apart

Our failed relationships -> 7+ years apart

That's the point. ;)
 
I was cleaning up my bookmarks on Firefox today and I got a sad.

I finally deleted the You Can Play This link from my bookmarks.

RIP JW
I downloaded the episodes I really cared about, burnt them on DVD, and filed them. They'll be there for me when I want them. Can't watch them yet.
 
Last night: "I wish I didn't have to go to work tomorrow so I could stay home and play with the baby rats."

This morning: *fucking intense stomach pain and other issues* Fuck, I wanna go to work if it'll stop this.

In other news, if your wife decides to order from a Chinese food place that gives you four people's worth of food for $12, as an alternative to the more expensive Chinese food place that's never made you sick, don't take her up on that. It's $12 for a reason and it's not worth it.

I'm hoping this will pass within the next hour and I can go to work, because I don't want to be like this any longer.
 

Cajungal

Staff member
It is becoming painfully obvious that I haven't had to design a math lesson in about 6 years. Jesus. Jesus Christ. What am I going to do? Minor freakout. My 2 mentor teachers just dumped 5 tons of paper on top of me and left. Jesus. Shit shit shit.

I'm flopping between feeling calm one minute and feeling and helpless the next. Every time I look at the books and the logic puzzles my chest feels tight.
 
It is becoming painfully obvious that I haven't had to design a math lesson in about 6 years. Jesus. Jesus Christ. What am I going to do? Minor freakout. My 2 mentor teachers just dumped 5 tons of paper on top of me and left. Jesus. Shit shit shit.

I'm flopping between feeling calm one minute and feeling and helpless the next. Every time I look at the books and the logic puzzles my chest feels tight.
Step back from the big picture. Just focus on the next thing you need to do. One little step at a time.
 
It is becoming painfully obvious that I haven't had to design a math lesson in about 6 years. Jesus. Jesus Christ. What am I going to do? Minor freakout. My 2 mentor teachers just dumped 5 tons of paper on top of me and left. Jesus. Shit shit shit.

I'm flopping between feeling calm one minute and feeling and helpless the next. Every time I look at the books and the logic puzzles my chest feels tight.
Just burn it all and say, FUCK IT! They're watching MathNet all year!

 
My girlfriend gets back Saturday and not a day too soon. I have masturbated maybe 12000 times in the last two weeks.
 
=makes root beer float=

Here child number one taste this and if you like it I will make one for you

And its gone...

(Grumble grumble grumble)

=makes root beer float=

Here child number two taste this and if you like it I will make one for you

...... @#$/ @$/^&&*&^$$@
 

GasBandit

Staff member
So suddenly? Here's hoping it's not stones.

--Patrick
It's happened before, though almost never this bad. I've got back problems stemming from a childhood car wreck, and if I'm not careful about where and how I fall asleep, my back hurts in the morning. But today it was especially bad... even sitting in a chair made it hard to breathe.
 
=makes root beer float=

Here child number one taste this and if you like it I will make one for you

And its gone...

(Grumble grumble grumble)

=makes root beer float=

Here child number two taste this and if you like it I will make one for you

...... @#$/ @$/^&&*&^$$@


--Patrick
 

doomdragon6

Staff member
I have now spent an entire week or more with absolutely nothing to do. Literally, nothing. I think about things I could fix up around the apartment, or clean, or whatever, and nothing comes to mind. I guess I took care of it all last time I had a manic episode. >>

I have nothing to do. I don't have enough room for many hobbies, and anything I created would take up too much space (even if it's a little trinket) because my room is like 11x11 and I have to make everything I own fit in that.

Any other physical hobby requires money I can't spend or driving really, really far away (and gas money). The ones that are free, like going to the archery range, are crowded with so many people I can't enjoy it.

I'm aware I'm just whining, but that's the name of the thread. I'm also aware that I'm shutting myself out of everything my mind suggests.

Somebody said go to a library and just read a book. I could, but then I'm just like, "Okay, I read a book. So what?" Like, I'm not depressed, but I am VERY AWARE that I'm in the "what's the point of bothering to do anything" mindset.

I've been wanting to see Guardians of the Galaxy and the new Ninja Turtles movie, and I have a girl I could go with. But I don't want to deal with the social implications of going to a movie with a girl. Anyone else I'd want to go with has already seen them. I COULD go by myself, but I don't think I've done that ever in the history of movie-going, and I honestly, truly feel that that would make me feel that I've hit a new level of sad.

I've applied to jobs, but haven't heard back. I'm trying to avoid applying to crap part-time jobs so I don't get stuck in that trap, but I may need to.

I'm basically at the point where no matter what iteration of "Why not do this?" seems pointless. I'd love it if I got invited to things, but all my friends don't really do much. They're all pretty well set in their lives, are married/coupled, and don't go do anything. They're doing the comfortable sit at home thing.

Speaking of, I fluctuate between missing my ex and not. We had that nice comfortable relationship thing, before everything got ridiculously stressful. She's back in town for good now, and I know full well we wouldn't work out long term, but yeah. I've actually realized that girl-wise, there are 3 girls I think about at different times (none of them really healthy):
- I think about my ex when I'm lonely
- I think about girl-I-almost-dated when I think of what a nice future with a girl could be like (so optimistic)
- I think about movie girl above when I'm bored.

I just feel-- not stuck, but... I guess the word is stagnant. I'm not progressing in any way, and I'm not sure how to. Or rather, where I want to go. Because, if I had a goal in mind? I'd ABSOLUTELY obtain it. I'd get it and work towards it. I just don't know what the shit I want, at all, in ANY aspect of my life. Jobs, where to live, relationships, anything. I have -no- idea where I want to go, so I have no idea how to get there.

Typically I just went with the flow and that worked perfectly, but that seems to have run its course.

We have our weekly club meetings starting up soon again, so maybe that'll help from a social aspect, but who knows. Most of them are 19-21 now and I'm realizing that 5-7 years can make a big difference.

tl;dr: whine whine whine life whine whine
 
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