I don't dislike the idea of having a ton of sexual partners for religious reasons or moral reasons... and I don't think less of people for it either. It's a very personal choice... none of my business. And I'm happy to hear that most people who have sex with many different people are safe.
I can't wrap my head around the idea of having sex with someone I barely know. I don't trust people enough, and as great as sex can be, I couldn't imagine sharing that part of myself with someone who I don't completely trust. I don't think I have the capacity to "let go" that much. I don't think of it as having fun or just sowing my wild oats. It's a truly frightening thought for me, and it's why I never wonder about what I'm missing, I suppose.
Again, that's just me. Sometimes I think about what would happen if, God forbid, Jake and I ever split up. How would I survive in the dating world where it seems so common to have sex after knowing someone for such a short amount of time? Would I adjust or would I hold out for someone whose views were similar to mine? Would I ever ever in some situation be able to stop thinking for two seconds and just go ahead with it?
When I think back to when Jake and I first admitted our attraction to one another, I can actually see it happening. We were
so careful not to rush things, but it was difficult not to. If I felt early on that a man could be a true friend as well as everything else, I think I could.
Don't mind me, just thinkin' out loud.... or overthinking out loud.