Blergh. Can't motivate myself to go to the gym. I hate working out, being sore for two or three days afterwards, not knowing what I'm doing, being looked at by the 25-year-old jock type idiots doing crappy excercises (I may not be good at knowing what to do, but even I can tell some of the stuff they're doing is more likely to break the machine than improve their muscles in any meaningful way) (I could be racist and point out that it's always a bunch of young fit immigrant guys hanging around trying to look tough and doing not much else but I'll refrain...Doesn't mean it helps any with feeling safe or secure, though, especially for women who are staying away), feeling lost, not seeing any improvement (quite the contrary, I'm just eating more because of the excercise and gaining more weight...and no, it's not just muscles unless they're all concentrated around my waistline)...add in my lack of any regularity in my working hours meaning I rarely know in advance when I'll have the time to go, lack of time, general depression meaning I Don't have energy or interest in doing much of anything anyway, and ugh.
Someone have some motivation to spare?
