Rant V - The Drama Strikes Back

[Cajungal]

Well, ya gotta start somewhere, Rob. Maybe after she gets a little bit more experience, she'll have more to say. Or maybe she's all about stopping and appreciating the beauty of things--or even just the reality of things, since not everything is beautiful--and nothing more. There's a place for that, at least I think so. I can be impressed simply by the technique and hard work that goes into painting or sculpting something well. It takes concentration and talent that I just don't have.

 

[Cajungal]

I want a hug. Damn this city.

 

[Rob King]

Yeah, after thinking about my post, perhaps I was a bit brutal. I still feel like art should be communicative, but I guess "this hill is pretty" is communication. It's just not a message that I care that much for.

As for my frustration at them being able to think of themselves as artists ... I'll admit that's completely on me. I had a conversation with someone this week about something similar, and she asked me "Are you an artist?" I had to answer 'no.' That crushed me.

I want to be. Arrogant as it sounds: I could be. But an artist has to produce art, and I do stuff at such an appalling rate, I couldn't in good conscience lay claim to the title.

Sorry if my frustrated ranting was ignorant or offensive. I guess this is the more genuine rant.

 

[Cajungal]

I gathered that your rant had something to do with frustration with yourself. Not offensive at all, just a very human feeling. I wish I felt more like a writer, and I'm very critical of other writers (because I'm twice as bad towards my own, I guess, and I want to make myself feel better?).

Anyway, trying to make art is frustrating. That reaction towards people who don't share the same vision as you is completely understandable.

 

[strawman]

But an artist has to produce art, and I do stuff at such an appalling rate, I couldn't in good conscience lay claim to the title.

I feel the same way about my various talents. And yet here I am, checking all the threads in this forum instead of working on my many projects.

Don't be so hard on yourself. Do the best you can, work on improving your discipline, and reward yourself for time well spent.

-Adam

 

[kaykordeath]

Goddamn doctor (who DOES take my insurance) scheduled my daughter's surgery at a hospital that DOESN'T take the insurance.

So now it's either reschedule for who the hell knows when (and oh yeah wife starts a new job in a week and a half so good luck finding an opportune time), cancel the surgery outright, or go ahead as is and swallow the out of network percentage....

After finally getting her in the mindset to have this done tomorrow, and down to a freakout factor of only 8 out of 10, it's really looking like we're gonna just go for it tomorrow..

but FUUUUUUUCK!!!!

 

[Jake]

Hmm... my son is getting a tonsillectomy on Friday. I didn't think to check if the hospital (not our usual) takes our insurance.

 

[LittleSin]

Yeah, after thinking about my post, perhaps I was a bit brutal. I still feel like art should be communicative, but I guess "this hill is pretty" is communication. It's just not a message that I care that much for.

As for my frustration at them being able to think of themselves as artists ... I'll admit that's completely on me. I had a conversation with someone this week about something similar, and she asked me "Are you an artist?" I had to answer 'no.' That crushed me.

I want to be. Arrogant as it sounds: I could be. But an artist has to produce art, and I do stuff at such an appalling rate, I couldn't in good conscience lay claim to the title.

Sorry if my frustrated ranting was ignorant or offensive. I guess this is the more genuine rant.

I also wish I could respond that I'm an artist but I've never had a gallery show, have only sold 12 paintings/drawings in 10 years for pathetic sums and I have terrible work ethic which has only gotten worst since I had the babe.

That being said, I don't have messages in mind when I paint or draw. I just say "That would look awesome" and get started.


Rantos EVERYONE have an opinion on how to raise and care for my child?!

 

[Cajungal]

:\ That's how it goes, Lilsin. I haven't witnessed it with any of the parents here...

....but parents can be fucking SMUG sometimes.

 

[Jake]

Apparently the lab doing the blood work necessary for my son's tonsillectomy tomorrow LOST HIS FUCKING BLOOD! My wife had to take him in again to get jabbed, which every 4 year old finds totally awesome, I assure you. In both arms, no less, since they somehow screwed up the first one.

At least they gave us 6 movie tickets, a teddy bear, and a pinwheel. Doesn't quite convert it to a win, though. :explode:

 

[Wasabi Poptart]

Rantos EVERYONE have an opinion on how to raise and care for my child?!

Parents and non-parents alike whether you ask their advice/opinion or not.

 

[drawn_inward]

LOUD NOISES!!!

 

[Cajungal]

:waah:

The chain on the necklace that Jake gave me broke. It's a pretty pink bead that he had made for me. I took it off the broken chain so I could bring it into town this weekend and find a new chain for it. The pockets in these new pants are so shallow... it must have fallen out. I have no idea where it is. I'm awful.

:waah:

 

[Silvanesti]

fuck this shit. blergherwargle

 

[strawman]

You remember my new baby, of course, but if not:

So he is now is rolling all over creation, not crawling yet, and his rolling has little direction or purpose, but he's mobile. I've asked my wife not to leave him on the bed to sleep anymore, knowing that she probably won't listen, and yesterday he did indeed fall off the bed.

He was sad and grumpy, and his ankle appeared unusually tender, but we figured he may have twisted it when he fell or hit it against one of the drawer handles under the bed. Tenderness like that should go away.

But instead, it's the kind of thing that's not painful until someone touches it, and then he screams bloody murder!

So she takes him into the after hours care tonight at the behest of her mother (and I'm stuck at work due to a software release tomorrow).

What does the radiologist say?

Broken leg!

I don't have all the details, and I'm not angry, but it's certainly very frustrating. Fortunately he isn't in constant pain, and seems to be just fine as long as nobody touches his ankle.

:tear:

Expect the cutest little baby pictures with cast later (should be dealing with that tomorrow, right now it's in a splint). I can only imagine how difficult it'll be to get him in and out of car seats and chairs now.

You'd think that after 4 daredevil boys the baby would be the least likely to suffer a broken leg...

-Adam
-Adam

 

[Rob King]

AGH! I keep losing words. I know there's a word for what I want to say, but then I just can't grasp it. This happened one time, and worrying that my brain function was being affected by poor diet, I started to take vitamins. They helped, but I stopped taking them once I lost the remainder of my bottle.

I was feeling similarly verbally neutered two weeks ago, and I figured it was the lack of vitamins again. I've been taking vitamins again now for the last two weeks, and I'm still losing words. I HATE it. I feel so powerless.

I mean, I don't lose my faculty of speech, and I've never been an orator, exactly, but I liked having a vocabulary of potent words. And now ... I feel like an imbecile when I trust myself to remember the word I'm searching for by the time I come to it's place in the sentence, and then I just stand there dumbly, with mouth open.

AAAAAAGGGHHH

[[Rant inspired by another rant I was trying to make, which was undermined when I couldn't remember half the words I was searching for]]

 

[figmentPez]

Rob, how bad is your aphasia? Are you only forgetting big words or little ones?

Either way, I sympathize. I have a pretty big vocabulary, and I know what it's like to know there's a much better word than anything that's coming to mind. I also know what it's like to be unable to think of basic words. Whatever is behind all the numerous health problems I have also causes me to periodically be unable to remember how to speak common words (like cookie or sphagetti and whatnot). I've have times when I could describe the concept I wanted to say, and even times when I could write the word but couldn't remember how to speak it. Sometimes just hearing the word restored the connection, other times it took longer to come back.

It's always frustrating to loose words, no matter what level it's at.

 

[Rob King]

Mostly medium to big ones. The one I kept losing earlier while trying to make my previous rant was 'indiscretion.' Not that that's a particularly grand example of a word, but it keeps happening, and it makes me sad.

In some cases, it's probably been a blessing, in that the person I was talking to would have asked what the word meant anyhow. But it's stressing me out. I want to choose not to use a word, not have it chosen for me.

 

[strawman]

Discord and Dissonance were the words I needed, nay required the last time I was missing words.

Thing is, these are words I need to use only occasionally. I suspect they fall from mind when unused, so I'm going to try using odd words a little more frequently. I'll come off as... uh... what's the word I'm thinking of? grrrr! "better than thou" or "snooty" or... there's a word for this! I know it!

WAAAAUAUAUGHGGHGHRBRBRLEBELLBLLBLBLBLLEEEEE

/brains seep out ears and onto floor...

Me decide me need no special words. Me go now.

-Adam

 

[Silvanesti]

Day keeps getting better. Get off of work and find my bathroom partially flooded because the stupid bitch above me let her tub overfill. Call my landlord and he was so ever helpful "well i would use some towels to mop some of that up, i'll fix it when i get a chance"

awesome. :frusty:

 

[strawman]

I just found out more. Salter III fracture of the distal tibia involving 40% of the joint surface.

Type 3 break through the bone at the growth plate, separating the bone end from the bone shaft and completely disrupting the growth plate.

* May result in arrested growth and requires surgical treatment.
* Often treated with internal fixation to ensure proper alignment.

gragh.

Now I'm unhappy.

-Adam

 

[strawman]

I just found out more. Salter III fracture of the distal tibia involving 40% of the joint surface.

Type 3 break through the bone at the growth plate, separating the bone end from the bone shaft and completely disrupting the growth plate.

* May result in arrested growth and requires surgical treatment.
* Often treated with internal fixation to ensure proper alignment.

gragh.

Now I'm unhappy.

-Adam

That sucks. And all this just because your wife was stubborn in the "Oooh, he'll be alright, let him play on the bed. Don't be so paranoid." way? :?[/QUOTE]

It isn't out of stubbornness, just a different risk calculation. She doesn't think it's very dangerous - until life proves her wrong.

On the other hand I'm very conservative about this sort of thing - even if the risk of something bad happening is low I worry and try to change things to reduce the risk.

I trust her completely with our children, though. She beats up on herself more than she deserves when something like this happens, and you can bet she's also getting an earful from her mother and a chiropractor friend.

Suffice to say, this is not the worst that could have happened, she's just the kind of person that prefers learning from her own experience.

-Adam

 

[Cajungal]

Aw, steiny. I hope the little guy mends quickly.

I have a knack for seeing what bad can happen. It makes me a little paranoid. I would have been the one wanting the kid off the bed.

 

[ZenMonkey]

Man, I feel bad for the forum's parents! Thinking good thoughts for your little ones, Jake and stieny.

Also, Rob, one of the awesome side effects of my illness is "brain fog," which plays merry hell with my verbal recall also. I'll be on a roll writing something and have to stop all the time to coax the damn words off the tip of my tongue, or just admit defeat and go to Google or the thesaurus for them. Sorry you're experiencing that.

 

[CynicismKills]

Woo, 5 am, work at 10 and I can't sleep at all.

Gonna be a fun day!

 

[Shakey]

My head hurts. Why did I drink last night...

 

[Dave]

Why did I think I could pick up Sims 3 and make a game with 6 characters? Holy shit! It's fun, but I haven't even gone through 1 day yet and I already have about 40 screen shots and didn't get to bed until 2!

 

[phil]

Test starts in an hour! Going to continue to cram for it, then take it, then get some sleep, then do homework for the same class due at 6pm. I might go to sleep for good once that's all done. Maybe I mean getting a good night's sleep, maybe I mean just strait up dieing! WHO KNOWS?

 

[CynicismKills]

Woo, 5 am, work at 10 and I can't sleep at all.

Gonna be a fun day!

Last time I saw a clock it was about 7. Headed into work now. Ugh.

 

[Gusto]

Why did I think I could pick up Sims 3 and make a game with 6 characters? Holy shit! It's fun, but I haven't even gone through 1 day yet and I already have about 40 screen shots and didn't get to bed until 2!

Haha, yeah it's overwhelming if you've never played it before. There are even a ton of new things between Sims 2 and 3. I find playing a house with 8 people in it is only possible if I crank up their autonomy and only interfere a tiny bit. More entertaining too.

RANT: We're putting in a new bay window today, so there is currently a 5' by 9' hole in the front of my house. It's cold and kinda rainy today. And I cannot STAND the cold.

 

[CynicismKills]

Woo, 5 am, work at 10 and I can't sleep at all.

Gonna be a fun day!

Last time I saw a clock it was about 7. Headed into work now. Ugh.[/QUOTE]

It gets better! Drove 25 minutes to work and found out they don't need me today! I just wasted a gallon of gas and half my morning.

 

[Dave]

Woo, 5 am, work at 10 and I can't sleep at all.

Gonna be a fun day!

Last time I saw a clock it was about 7. Headed into work now. Ugh.[/quote]

It gets better! Drove 25 minutes to work and found out they don't need me today! I just wasted a gallon of gas and half my morning.[/QUOTE]

I seriously wish my work would have said that this morning. I'd waste the gas if I could go home.

 

[Cajungal]

Why did I think I could pick up Sims 3 and make a game with 6 characters? Holy shit! It's fun, but I haven't even gone through 1 day yet and I already have about 40 screen shots and didn't get to bed until 2!

Aw man. It's awesome that you're doing it but don't worry if it stops being fun!

 

[Dave]

Why did I think I could pick up Sims 3 and make a game with 6 characters? Holy shit! It's fun, but I haven't even gone through 1 day yet and I already have about 40 screen shots and didn't get to bed until 2!

Aw man. It's awesome that you're doing it but don't worry if it stops being fun![/QUOTE]

If it wasn't fun I would have quit at 10 and gone to bed. I looked up at the clock and went "Holy Shit!"

 

[Cajungal]

O good. ^_^ Then carry on!