We mostly live paycheck to paycheck. If I hadn't taken out a loan we wouldn't have been able to replace it, it just seems like everything is hitting at the exact same time right when I don't need it to hit. But will see. Everything normally works itself out I'm sure it will this time as wellWhen we were kids, my little brother broke his retainer and my Mom flipped out. Looking back, money was incredibly tight in our house so now I understand why a $400 dental bill would hurt.
Sell the kids.Jesus fucking christ. Took out a loan from my 401k so that I could pay off what needs to be paid off before I quit, and have enough saved for a whole paycheck, plus college fees. Well. Got the loan, paid off the bills that needed to be paid, have everything set aside... Well... One kid needs 25 bucks for school, the other kid needs 55 bucks for school, the 3rd kid just broke his glasses for the 2nd time so no more insurance on those, the 2nd kid from above broke her retainer, dental insurance doesn't cover it and the dentist is trying to say it's going to cost 400 dollars to replace a thin piece of plastic.. So... Kinda screwing up my plan by 600 or so dollars. I'm sure I can figure this all out. I have a safety bonus coming up so maybe I can save some of that for like 200 or so back into the savings. It's just a mess
Retainers and glasses? This isn't prime genetic stock. He'll be lucky to get the 600 back.Sell the kids.
I feel this so hard. My wife and I had some words a couple of months ago about our dead bedroom. She's doing her best to be more accommodating, but at the same time I don't want to make her do stuff she doesn't actually want to do, y'know? And our relationship is perfect in virtually every other way. It's a pickle.Increasingly doubting my relationship and it’s basically 100% due to a lack of sex, which is incredibly frustrating because we’re so much more compatible in every other way, more than I’ve been in any other relationship. But it’s hard to feel attractive when her response to sex is “nah I’m good” all but once a month.
To echo this, there's a reason they sometimes prescribe women small amounts of testosterone if they feel like they are having problems with sexual activity. Sexual desire is strongly chemical in nature and a billion things can affect it that are outside the hands of the individual.I know this isn't the advice subforum, but just to offer some perspective that may or may not be useful.
I never liked the ridiculous insistence my body had for sexual activity; it felt outside my will and desire. Without testosterone, that's entirely gone now. There's definitely a "getting in the mood" process that wasn't there before that can make sexual activity feel a little like a time-consuming chore.
I'm not saying that goes for all women and could be solely my unique experience from seeing both sides of the hormone field, but in the off-chance it isn't, maybe consider that might also be the feeling of your significant others and approach from that angle. IF it feels like another chore, just a task to complete, how can that be changed?
Which I'm aware of and try to take into account. But if your view of sex is "a chore", and you literally say "oh god, getting up afterwards, and going to wash up, and ugh I'm tired, I'd rather go do the dishes"...Well, OK. Fine. But then don't be jealous. If you don't think sex is worth it or an instrumental part of a relationship, fair enough - but then don't be jealous, either. If you think sex is about as interesting as cooking, you should probably also care as much about who I have sex with as with whom I'm doing the laundry.I know this isn't the advice subforum, but just to offer some perspective that may or may not be useful.
I never liked the ridiculous insistence my body had for sexual activity; it felt outside my will and desire. Without testosterone, that's entirely gone now. There's definitely a "getting in the mood" process that wasn't there before that can make sexual activity feel a little like a time-consuming chore.
I'm not saying that goes for all women and could be solely my unique experience from seeing both sides of the hormone field, but in the off-chance it isn't, maybe consider that might also be the feeling of your significant others and approach from that angle. IF it feels like another chore, just a task to complete, how can that be changed?
To be fair, depression is also itself quite the wet blanket for smothering the flames of passion. And there's a lot going on in the world right now to make a person depressed (even if they aren't outwardly showing signs). So the odds of finding a time when someone is "in the mood" are about the same as finding an all-yellow banana...the overwhelming majority of 'em are going to be green or brown, and if you do find any yellows, they aren't going to stay yellow for very long.One of the side-effects of [anti-depressant] drugs, you know, the ones that literally keep me from trying to kill myself, is that they have taken my sex drive out behind the barn and shot it. It's gone. It's done.
Here's a hug, because of what you're going through.Speaking solely for myself (as a woman):
When I was dating my now spouse, I had a sex drive that matched and sometimes even exceed theirs.
Years passed, and things happen, and I'm now on anti-depressants.
One of the side-effects of those drugs, you know, the ones that literally keep me from trying to kill myself, is that they have taken my sex drive out behind the barn and shot it. It's gone. It's done. I have less than no interest in sex. I still like to cuddle, but the thought of penetrative sex is ... just... grey. It has all the appeal of plain oatmeal.
It's an issue. And one that I've talked about with my spouse, and one which I still don't think they fully grasp without massive amounts of resentment.
I've also asked my therapist about it, and there's basically no helping the problem either, which is super frustrating.
I fully believe that my lack of sex drive is going to be what leads to the breakdown of my marriage. It's not going to be the last thing, but it will be the first in the string of events that leads to the relationship dissolving.
So - ya.
"If I can't keep track of a bunch of 5-year-olds, how can I do anything?" assumes dealing with a bunch of 5-year-olds is easy, and it's really, really not. Even two is challenging. You're allowed for that to not be your jam.Just woke up from a bad dream where I was a Kindergarten/Grade 1 teacher; similar grade level like when I was doing my teaching practicum about 5 years ago...and had dropped out of the program.
That...stirred up a lot of big, bad emotions and I don't know how to deal with them. And now I can't sleep.
In the dream, I was own my own and no control over the class itself. We were doing an activity. I turned my back for a second and suddenly they were in the hallway getting ready to go outside because they suddenly decided they wanted recess (which wasn't for another hour), rather than be authoritative, I just went out with them. Finally, while they were outside, I managed to take control, get them lined up, and come back inside...but not without losing two little girls, which I didn't realize until we were back inside.
I panicked and asked for help from the teacher across the hall (whose students whispered about how I was a bad teacher). The dream ended when the other teachers were looking for the little girls and I flat-out asked the rest of the class what they wanted to do.
And now I can't sleep because that...basically happened during my practicum. Not the recess thing, but close. My co-op teacher had stepped out for longer than usual and I panicked and hadn't noticed that recess had started (after seeing other kids from other classrooms playing outside). And during one hectic indoor lunch period (where again, the other teacher had stepped out), one little boy ran out. We had planned for this before, since he made a beeline upstairs to see his brother in another classroom. But I didn't see two other little boys rush out to find him. They were all found and returned, mind you. Thank Christ for the other teachers at the time because God only knows what would have happened to those kids.
This incident, along with my overall poor performance, was discussed during one of my regular evaluations with my co-op teacher and evaluator. The co-op specifically wrote she did NOT recommend me as a teacher (and rightfully so, I'm still ashamed of that incident).
I'm currently in a 6-week group therapy program. This past week, I broke down crying during one counselling session because I was reminded how painful it was to drop out of my Elementary Teaching program. I hit a proverbial wall that I've never recovered from and it's a big part of why I see myself as a failure. It's why I've given up on life and feel hopeless about my future. Because if I screwed up THAT badly, what else I could screw up if I was given any responsibility at all?
And now I'm just...Christ, I'm crying just writing this and can't get back to sleep.
PREACH IT!"If I can't keep track of a bunch of 5-year-olds, how can I do anything?" assumes dealing with a bunch of 5-year-olds is easy, and it's really, really not. Even two is challenging.
I've been telling my mother this for over thirty years, and she still can't let herself let bygones be bygones.I think you need to forgive yourself. For that and anything else you're holding against yourself.
Keep checking in. We want to know.Nation wide curfew. Things are very ugly right now.
The curfew is in Quito. The rest of the country is only around "strategic locations". Things in the coast region where I am are pretty calm. The sierra region is a mess. If I weren't so scared this would be a nice opportunity to test the dangers of socialism and if an unarmed population can topple a goverment.Keep checking in. We want to know.
--Patrick
It's over. You can't legislate in this country. A group of people took a city for ransom and won. Their plea was just but the end doesn't justify the means.The curfew is in Quito. The rest of the country is only around "strategic locations". Things in the coast region where I am are pretty calm. The sierra region is a mess. If I weren't so scared this would be a nice opportunity to test the dangers of socialism and if an unarmed population can topple a goverment.
What the hell? What caused you two to have words in the first place?Got threatened by a guy on campus today, who decided to follow me to class in his car while yelling insults. So not only did I piss off a psycho, he knows where I'm going to be 4 days a week.
Just... god damn it.
He was some grubhub/food delivery guy who pulled up and parked across an entire crosswalk when some other students and I were about to cross. I told him that was illegal (and shitty) and he went ape.What the hell? What caused you two to have words in the first place?
Also, not okay, psycho dude. You might want to give a heads-up to campus security.