My mental health has taken a *BEATING* the past two weeks. I've varied from depression, anger, anxiety, overwhelming sadness, it'd be funny if it wasn't so sad at the same time. I know the triggers - I am well-past overloaded, full time school, full time work, full time volunteer, my kids are going through some kind of leap that has made them very difficult to deal with, and my wife who I would think in my rational mind is doing her best, in my sick mind is annoyed/disappointed/done with me. It has left me feeling very stranded and misunderstood with no avenues for discussion. It doesn't help that all of those 'full time things' are incredibly stressful right now, whether it means a high workload, a lot of eyes on a project, finishing a final paper for school, leading a new organization through a difficult time. I just...want to crawl into bed. I have many many people telling me that I need to take a vacation but there is no ideal time to do it, and no ideal way to take it - I can't go anywhere unless it's by myself and my frame of mind isn't in a place where that's a good idea. I am hoping that by the end of this week with my one class coming to a close, that'll alleviate the pressure.
When you find everyone and everything incredibly annoying, I have to be the problem, right??