I understand how you feel. My dog Molly died right before christmas a couple of years ago. She had started having seizures, to the point that I was a little relieved when she finally passed since I knew she had been in pain before that.
It sucks, there's nothing else that can be said about it. Just know that we're here for you if you need a hug, or to vent, or just to cry.
Thank you! Yeah, it’s been rough - Fly has seizures occasionally, he had one last Friday actually and has osteoarthritis in his hips. It’s very hard. He’s pretty much all I have anymore.
I’ve already cried for a while. I’m going to try and calm down though so I can enjoy my day off instead of ruining it for myself. :/ Pupper is fine for now, snoozing at my feet.