Rant VIII: The Reckoning
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Acadeeeeeeemia. He's the prof with the grant, so he's the ultimate decision maker. Sigh.
Are you sure there isn't... something else going on between them? You might want to do some snooping and see if he's doing something he shouldn't be doing with his protege.
Nah, nothing like that. He's in another city; mostly it's that he is a coward who hates confrontation, and it's easier to say no to me, who has only a relatively recent, professional, working relationship, than to admit his student, who he has known for much longer in different capacities, is not qualified for the job he gave her, and lecture -or fire- her. Such is life.
So, had the annual physical a week or so ago, was sent for the usual blood panel. Got the results today, which came with a diagnosis I have been expecting to hear for 9 years. I'm officially diabetic. I have 4 generations of women who I am directly descended from who all had it as well, and it's been getting yonger by about a decade with each generation. As the normally cool headed and responsible one when bad shit happens or shit hits the fan, I am responding to this by getting as drunk as possible.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Especially when those FUCKING UPDATES are just comercials for DLC that you don't want to buy! They don't even give you the freakin' option to not deal with it, its wait 10 minutes for commercial or NO GAME FOR YOU*!
*said in accent of you should know.
Cajungal
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I am behind on this, but some cites have therapists that work on a sliding scale based on your income. If anxiety is causing you to be physically ill and interrupting your daily life, then it could be a good idea to see if you can find someone who works on such a scale.
doomdragon6
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Not sure if this is a rant, but I need to kill some time and ANXIETY!
As many of you know I went through a super crazy-ass breakup 3 months ago (God dammit, time flies.) Since I've been back I actually managed to work through my issues of the past, nostalgia, and things like that, and I'm actually ready to move forward with life. You know, get a real job and do all that adult stuff.
But that also comes with wanting a life partner, which I gave up to figure out what I needed to. Now I'm almost disgusted by living with my roommate, because we do things, but they don't matter. I have this intense hatred that every experience I have isn't with someone I'm going to (try to) spend my life with.
It's crazy and irrational and comes with the territory I guess, but damn it. Not only am I having to deal with breaking up with a great girl, moving on in life, trying to ENJOY it despite being in a complete funk, I also have to deal with the fact that anything I do enjoy, I immediately feel hatred for it because it's not building upon anything; it's merely "fun for now".
First world problems, yada yada. Life. I'm so bad at handling it. @_@
As many of you know I went through a super crazy-ass breakup 3 months ago (God dammit, time flies.) Since I've been back I actually managed to work through my issues of the past, nostalgia, and things like that, and I'm actually ready to move forward with life. You know, get a real job and do all that adult stuff.
But that also comes with wanting a life partner, which I gave up to figure out what I needed to. Now I'm almost disgusted by living with my roommate, because we do things, but they don't matter. I have this intense hatred that every experience I have isn't with someone I'm going to (try to) spend my life with.
It's crazy and irrational and comes with the territory I guess, but damn it. Not only am I having to deal with breaking up with a great girl, moving on in life, trying to ENJOY it despite being in a complete funk, I also have to deal with the fact that anything I do enjoy, I immediately feel hatred for it because it's not building upon anything; it's merely "fun for now".
First world problems, yada yada. Life. I'm so bad at handling it. @_@
The longer you're with someone, the longer the breakup paints a negative tinge on your life. Sadly, it may be a year before you feel normal again.
That you're suddenly wanting a life partner again so soon after wanting to break free of the one you pretty much had makes me worry that in either case you're just suffering from "grass is greener" syndrome. With her for four years--want to try being away. Broken up with her--want to be in a relationship again.
Maybe what you need to do is go do things by yourself. Not with your roommate or with friends, but on your own.
That you're suddenly wanting a life partner again so soon after wanting to break free of the one you pretty much had makes me worry that in either case you're just suffering from "grass is greener" syndrome. With her for four years--want to try being away. Broken up with her--want to be in a relationship again.
Maybe what you need to do is go do things by yourself. Not with your roommate or with friends, but on your own.
Yes. Perhaps @doomdragon6 needs to solo some sort of satisfying situation, if only to prove that other people aren't mandatory.
--Patrick
You know, I didn't even think of interpreting it like that. Until I saw your smiley.
--Patrick
I thought you worded it intentionally towards that.
Nope. I know I'm master-level at innuendo, but this time it was just my subconscious flaring up again, I'm sure.
I must've internalized it so much that it just happens naturally.
I'll just maintain that what I meant is that he should have a long, satisfying poop. Yeah, that's it.
--Patrick
Now all your words sound like they're suggesting masturbation.
This guy at work tried to tell me that macs had better processor speed and better graphics cards than a pc "because they are more expensive," he wouldn't believe me when I told him that wasn't true. Smh
If B is more expensive than A, then -clearly- B is better. That's just logic!
I tried saying that he was paying for the label then he said that if one laptop is 400 or 500 and a mac is double that price it has to be better. I loled
But then again the coworker he was talking to had a crappy compaq
GasBandit
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I know I sound like such a child saying it, but it isn't fair, and it isn't right. After living so much of her life in fear and pain, she had started to come out and be happy again. And now she's gone, and I'm alone. She didn't deserve to spend her final weeks in agony. I'd forgotten that it was possible to cry so hard.
I might be scarce for a while.
I might be scarce for a while.
Barring server problems, we'll still be here when you want to resume your spleen-o-rama.
Don't stay away too long, or we'll start to worry. Entirely too much of this going on lately, and having your wagon in our circle would be a bonus.
Dunno if he has explicitly stated it, gonna leave it that way.
--Patrick
He has at least once, though it was in the
And Gas... I'm so terribly, terribly sorry. Please accept my most heartfelt condolences and best wishes.
EDIT: Got the wrong subforum, my bad.
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It runs in my family really badly. I'm sorry dude, that's...well, I'm just really sorry for your loss.
I'm so so sorry. Please ... believe you're not alone. Take care...
I'm so sorry, Gas. It isn't right and it isn't fair--those aren't childish things to say; they're the truth.
We'll be here.
We'll be here.