ARGH! This is one of the things I hate about trying to rebuild my life right now. I've got more energy than I have in a while, but most of it goes right back into trying to take care of my health. What little time and energy I've got left often feels like less than I had when I didn't know what to do about being sick. It's not a bad thing, if I can look at it long term, but for right now it means I don't have much interesting going on...
So, when something interesting and exciting happens, it's so damn hard to be patient and wait on the schedules of the other people in the world who have full lives that keep them busy with commitments they've already made. I don't usually notice the glacial pace my life moves at, because there's a lot of routine and I rarely look forward to finding out anything unexpected. When something, or someone, unexpectedly interesting pops into my life, it really highlights just how little else I have going on with which to distract myself.
Being impatient is only going to make things less likely to turn out well, but it's really hard to throw myself into a distraction when what I need to be doing most right now is resting. Kind of hard to rest when you're anxious to see where things are going. I need to grow up and learn patience one of these days, but I feel overwhelmed by the amount of life lessons I've been presented with lately.