[Rant] Minor Rant III: For a Few Hollers More

Sounds like you need to call March into your office and have a few words. It's not like there aren't other months who wouldn't love to take a piece of him for themselves.

He should shape up or ship out.
Don't be so hasty. Give March 2 more weeks to give you your ideal weather. If March can't do it by then, give April a shot at the job.
 
The college bookstore had the wrong book for my history class. I got an email on Thursday (which I didn't check because I was going on vacation) saying to call the bookstore to order the correct text. So I called tonight. It's back ordered and may not come in for 5-10 days! There is no digital copy. And I need the textbook for a password so I can access a website required for the course. First my final from the last class and now this. ARGH!
 
12 degrees F, 14 mph winds making it -8 F wind chills.

AND IT'S TWO DAYS BEFORE SPRING.
It was -2F and about -20 windchill this morning. Tomorrow morning it'll be around -30 windchill. I should take a picture of the snow drifts we have alongside the roads after yesterday, they're nearly as tall as me. I like winter, but only for so long. It's time for you to gtfo.
 
Last week we had two days in the 70s. It was wonderful. Now its in the 30s and i can look froward to spending my spring break in warm buffalo, ny.
 
So, a while back I posted in one of the victory threads that I was finally recovering from a bulging disk issue in my neck and back. Boy... was I wrong. On the plus side, my neck has loosened up to the point where I can mostly pop the pain away, but on the negative side, it's actually a muscle tightness issue and when it's not causing me enough pain to override my ridiculously high pain tolerance it's causing me an incredible amount of discomfort as it just constantly feels like the nerves are firing off that pseudo-electrical raw feeling across pretty much my entire body (because the impingement is hitting me at C-5). I've been told (by a chiropractor) that there's nothing that they can do for me, and that I'd be best served finding a good massage therapist, but the only one I used to trust had a falling out with my wife and I, so this has been going on for almost two weeks with no real end in sight, and it's getting to the point that I'd consider going to a doctor of sports medicine for a cortisone shot just to get enough relief from the pain that I could sleep. Of course, if I didn't have a history of ulcers I could just take a few Ibuprofen and be done with it, but I can't.
 
(Hands Gared some Capsicum cream) Go to town.
Heh. So far I've gone with Tiger Balm, Extra Strength Tiger Balm, Tiger Balm patches, and Maximum Strength Icy Hot. They help me get to sleep, so long as I time it right, but they're sadly not doing a good enough job of actually relaxing the muscles in question. And neither did the approximately 5 grams of Potassium (in the form of Gatorade Recover shakes) that I had last week.
 
Yeah, it's just something I have to deal with. If I spent more time at the gym strengthening my upper back, I wouldn't be in this mess, or at least not as often, but I kind of quit going to the gym about a year ago, and since I'm not going to be working in Redmond anymore after next Friday, it makes it kind of un-economical to drive that far just to go to the gym, even if I do have a free lifetime membership. As far as this round is concerned, eventually I'll manage to get the muscles loosened up, and all of the appropriate joints will pop, and that will be that.
 
So many people around us are pregnant - one of the officers at my precinct is due about the same time that our most recent one was supposed to have been born...

Most days I'm okay, even though it's really rough on my wife.

Today, for some reason, it's hitting me kind of harder than usual.

I wish nothing but the best for everyone expecting, but there's still a small, selfish voice that says "That's supposed to be us..."
 
It took me 4 hours to get home tonight, because I accidentally ran into a freak Spring snowstorm... on a mountain pass. I just love spending 3 hours going 7 miles. Still... it was good to see snow sometime this year, and a good way to discover that I can still drive up a mountain pass in the snow with no traction tires or chains on mostly bald-ish tires.
 
It took me 4 hours to get home tonight, because I accidentally ran into a freak Spring snowstorm... on a mountain pass. I just love spending 3 hours going 7 miles. Still... it was good to see snow sometime this year, and a good way to discover that I can still drive up a mountain pass in the snow with no traction tires or chains on mostly bald-ish tires.
My mom had a doctor appointment this morning, and planned on driving herself for the first time since before the knee surgery.

She asks me to come down and get the car warmed up first. I open the blinds to reveal a near-whiteout.

It was a *very* short trip. :D
 
I want to be baking cookies right now, but I forgot to thaw the butter, so I have to wait.
So last night, my brother, whose idea of cooking is "I preheat the oven and put these frozen chicken nuggets in it for 20 minutes." suddenly decides he wants to bake cookies. I spent the night at a party, answering texts asking hilarious questions like "What is shortening?" and "Do you know if mom has chocolate chips?"
 
I have been making decisions the past few years that I hoped improve my life and for the most part they have but lately I look at the where I am in life and how my life is and I can't help but still feel down. I know that my life isn't bad and the things that are wrong with it are changeable it is all just a matter of time. But somehow that doesn't make me feel any better. For some reason lately it has been harder and harder to see the good things in my life. I know that the changes I have made and have been making are definitely for the best but that doesn't make me feel any better when I get into these moods every now and then. Part of my problem is I feel like I don't deserve the good things I have in my life even though I know that is not true.

Part of me feels that way because I know that I very rarely put 100% effort towards any one thing but that doesn't mean I haven't and don't work hard for the things I have in my life but at the same sense I feel that if I could actually out more effort forward I could be better off. Of course that could always be said of anything and of anyone in existence. I also have been feeling down because I am 26 years old almost 27 and I have very few friends and I have a very small social life with no girl friend. Heck I haven't ever even been on a date before in my life and that comes from my weird childhood plus my introversion and my social anxiety issues. I have been working on branching out more and being more social but at times it all feels in vain. I try to look at and focus on the good things in my life but that isn't always the easiest thing to do.

Anyways I apologize for this rather whiny post but for some reason typing this out helps me think (and that is both good and bad :) )
 
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