So? You're still a good person. Being a good person when you're Bono and half the world is constantly telling you you're amazing, you're rich and so forth is easy. Being a good person when you don't have much or can't do much is much harder. Even if I do agree that it may not be the most useful quote in the world in this situation, it still applies.
I don't know whether or not this therapy can or will help you. I do know - from having been there - that insisting on looking at yourself strictly in a negative light is completely useless and counterproductive. Of course, it is much easier to see the negatives than the positives.
You have to find worth in yourself and work to make your life better. How, why or where from you find motivation, a sense of pride, a sense of self, or purpose, or whatever, is your matter. Some find it in faith. Some find it in their job. Some by having lots of babies and continuing the existence of the human race. Some by having wild amounts of orgies with playboy bunnies. Some people simply aren't interested or worried about existential questions.
Part of your "problem", if I may be so bold as to say this from across the internet, is that you limit your sense of utility, of usefulness, of importance, to quite materialistic things. I don't mean this in a bad way towards you, specifically - I find myself often doing the same thing; it's a Western "disease", so to speak. All things and all people have to be "useful" and "do something" and preferably add economic value. It's sadly the other side of the coin of living in an industrial, enlightened era and society. We have much more time and capacity to think about these things, and we don't find or don't accept the "easy" answers anymore. Looking for them yourself is harder, Lord knows I haven't found it yet, but it is better than spending your life not thinking about it, in my mind.
You look at yourself as a cliche loser. This simply isn't true - but your mind makes sure to highlight those aspects that fit the picture and hide, obscure or minimize the rest. "Living with your parents" isn't losing. It's increasingly the case (and often, decision) of our generation. We talked about it in another thread around here, I think - comparatively, wages have been pretty stagnant since the seventies (adjusted for inflation), while home prices have more than doubled. People of our parents' generation may think "living at home" is failure, and they've no doubt convinced you - but over a third of 25-35 year olds live at home, simply because it's practically impossible to afford a house - even couples with two incomes struggle if they're not higher middle class.
Unambitious? No. Perhaps for the moment, because of that other word - directionless. You don't know where you want to go or what you want to do, which makes it hard to have ambition any which way. When you've had goals in the past, though, you did strive to get there. You may not feel it necessary to shoot for the stars and become The Best There Ever Was, but nobody says you have to - yet another one of those things we learned as children. Where this generation's children are the ones getting too much "participation ribbons" and whatever, we're the generation that was thought you always had to try to be the best, you always had to fight, you always had to go for it. This, again, isn't true. It just makes the whole of life one big combat, one big race, where you're destined to fail, because no-one can be the best at everything, all the time, always. See also: oh so many editorials and opinion articles and self-help books these days about Super Moms - Be the perfect Mother! Have an Amazing career! Be Sexy for your husband! Still be the Perfect Housewife! Enjoy! Live! The same goes the other way around - we as men are also constantly being pushed harder and harder, with ever more people putting ever more pressure on us, to succeed at everything. You don't have to. It's OK to be good at some things and bad at others. It's OK to accept help, in whatever form it may come.
Cliche? I don't recall the cliche loser living at home of having written several really cool and imaginative books. You may not find that important or good or whatever right now, and that's sad - because despite what else you might say, it is an accomplishment.
I can go on, but all in all, I'm just a random voice from across the internet. The only person who can, in the end, convince you, is you. because of the yoga, you're physically in better shape than you used to be. Going by your books, you're imaginative. Based on your posts, you're sensitive, and in many ways a good guy. You seem to be able to work with kids - and enjoy it.
Try to figure out some things that can make you happy or which make you feel slightly less like a loser, at least. Find a small way of doing that, or feeling it. What do I know - go read to children in the library, do some volunteering at a local museum in the kids' discovery room, whatever. Most of all, though, don't go into this therapy thinking it won't help anyway, it's just one of many similar, it's all useless and hopeless - because you should damn well be aware of it by now that that's a self-fulfilling prophecy.
Dunno what the repair cost was, since that was on the home owner.
