Am drunk...I was told tonight by my circle of friends that I am consider the "Alpha Male" and "Big Brother" of all the successful people in my life. These movers and shakers, god damn winners, all of them see me as the one with his shit together. You know how fucked up that is? These people, all of them what I would consider my superiors in every way. However, I guess, my ability to get us out of trouble and find the answers to the problems that seem to big to handle, that I can do the impossible when all the chips are down just trumped everything else. All the times I dragged them out of proverbial fires, advised them, saw them off on their journeys means im the "winner"...fuck, guess I owe my dads memory another toast.