So, it's the super duper master's closing dinner. I can't manage to get us to seat nearly. She sits down besides one of my secret allies. The dinner ends, and as this restaurant's schtic is that it's also like a bar with a dance floor, everybody starts getting up to dance and order drinks.
I don't need to order any drinks, wine has been flowing freely (though not uncontrolably) and I'm ready to talk to her.
I stand up. I'm walking towards her.
My infiltrated ally stops me.
"Abort every plan"
Why? Apparently, during the dinner, she had told her that I was trying to get into a trip she was trying to prepare. (the word she used, in spanish, was "acoplar", wich in this context means "joining without being wanted nor invited")
Man, was I furious. And sad. I gulped down a lot of vodka, and rum, and danced like crazy. I didn't get near her.
When the restaurant closed we went to a pretty cool (gay) club. She didn't join us, though, because she had to go to work the next day. When she was leaving, she told me that "we hadn't spoken that evening". I said I would have liked to, but whatever. She left, together with that ally girl.
I went to the club, had a great partying-because-you-are-so-depressed time and danced with my friends, including a gay friend of mine, (who kissed me on the cheek and said that of course that I could call him if I ever wanted to try having sex with a man, he kissed me twice more, always on the cheek, and I kissed his beard too once: what a weird feeling, kissing beards!)
It was 6 in the morning already when some friend (I don't exactly recall who he was, I was terribly drunk at that time) asked me about this girl and I. I told him what I was told that day by this "ally" of mine.
He insisted I take what she says with a grain of salt, he didn't think she was a reliable transmitter of information.
--- second chapter ---
Those words got stuck in my head for 3 days in wich I was furious and depressed. But it was not possible. She could not have been wrong, or even have changed what the cosplayer girl had told her!
In a facebook thread I have for instant support on this matters (wich includes this "ally girl") I said I saw the "cosplayer girl" as "manipulative and fake".
The ally girl then jumped at my jugular, saying that she told me what she told me to stop me, but that those weren't the "cosplayer girl"'s exact words.
She then proceeded to tell me how "Cosplayer Girl" didn't feel anything for me, and that she told me not to go to the trip because she felt it would be "weird" being alone with me in a hotel, and that if she started getting distant is because she "realised" I liked her and didn't want to hurt me, but if I wanted to call her names and made me feel better, then I could do whatever I wanted.
Chill out, man. I'm not the one who made me be raging 3 days thinking the girl I'm in love with is a manipulative bitch that talks badly about me when I'm not listening...
So, of course, there's nothing I can do. When she comes back from the trip, next week, I'll have coffee with her, to give her back her Terminator Dvd, and then I'll tell her I've been in love with her for some time. When she tells me she isn't, i'll insist I want us to be friends, but that she has to understand it if I keep the distance for some time. And then I'll go home to keep eating (dietetic products) like a pig.
Of course, all this if this last version of the story can be trusted... I'm not saying that my infoltrated friend has done anything on purpose, but even if she acted with her best intentions, now I can't trust her version of what was said (wich doesn't mean not trusting her as a person!)
But I'm pretty depressed right now. At least I kinda scored with my gay mexican friend...
