I should be thankful that I have a job and a roof over my head. But that's just today. Next week? Next month? Who knows? Thanksgiving dinner? Yeah, right. I'm having natto for lunch and then gyudon for dinner. There's no family around but the cats.
A guy representing the bank showed up to take pictures of the outside of the house. That can only mean foreclosure procedures are imminent. The owner of the hotel decided to cut the hours of the entire front desk staff for the winter. If I wasn't going to be able to afford rent before if I have to move, now it's going to be impossible. The guy doesn't realize that the front desk is a 24/7 position no matter how busy the season is. He obviously doesn't put any value on his employees. Two others not only just moved into new houses, but they also have families to feed. At this rate, he's going to have an empty property because no one will work for him. This is the same guy who complained about how he was "forced" to buy a new refrigerator so it would match the new dishwasher he also bought.
The job itself is fine once I'm on for the night, but I have to think of myself first. Christmas here is basically canceled. If I can't afford to even have a place to live, how in the hell am I going to be able to do anything for anyone else? Grandma gave me $100 for my birthday and Christmas Tuesday, and I did something for myself for the first time in months, before everything else hit the fan. I should have just handed the check to my sister to cover the electric bill.
I'm busting my ass to merely stay afloat, and it feels like the moment I make the slightest attempt to actually improve things, I get the rug yanked out from under me. Wanted to get the car fixed, and prescriptions got in the way. No refills without an office visit. Another $100+ just went goodbye. They want blood work done too. How much is the lab going to cost me? Instead of Thanksgiving leftovers (even though there aren't any), I need to fast so I can hopefully go in on Friday to get that done. Assuming I don't decide I need to hold onto my money instead.
And while everyone else is posting about their feasts and shopping plans, I'm sitting here thinking about going back to bed until Friday night when it's time for the work week to start again. Fuck the holidays.