I think I'm considering deleting or maybe just deactivating my social media accounts. Twitter, Facebook, Instagram. I find I waste ungodly amounts of time on them. And get into useless, unhealthy arguments with strangers in comment sections.
I've heard it's good for your mental health, and given the state of my mental health these days, maybe it might do me some good.
On the other hand, I like communicating and keeping in touch with some people on Twitter and Facebook (I barely use Instagram). I enjoy the memes.
I also like Twitter for at least keeping in small contact with fellow creative people I either admire or might even want to work with some day (like comic artists).
But...I don't know. Half the time, I'm not even engaging with anyone (save for previously mentioned unhealthy arguments). I usually just scroll through, skimming at best. I don't really talk to people. I'm not very social and spend 99% of my time alone, even before Covid-19.
And on the times I want to, say, comment on a CBC News post, either on Twitter or Facebook, I usually get dog piled by loudmouth Conservatives or trolls. Most times, I soon delete the comment rather than deal with that because I'm admitted an oversensitive person.i
I don't know anymore. I'm not in a good place, mentally, and haven't been for a long time, even before the pandemic. I regained the weight I lost a year or two ago. I stopped eating healthy. I stopped exercising. I stopped writing. I waste most of my time playing video games.
I think I'm on the verge of losing my job because I've missed a lot of time by calling in "sick" due to being severely depressed. (I say sick in quotations because I'm not physically sick). And instead I just play games or scroll social media.
But I just don't know anymore about anything. I'm 42 years old and I feel like I've wasted my life. No partner, no kids, living with my parents, and working an incredibly mentally draining call center job that admittedly pays well, but I don't have skills for anything better.
This...turned into talking about more than deleting or pausing my social media. Sorry.